Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Love Is All You Need

Again, a Beatles reference in my posting. No, I'm not old enough to have enjoyed their music at the pinnacle of it's popularity. I'm a younger-than-that Beatles fan. Listening to the compilation album, The Beatles 1 makes me happy. And happy is what I need to be right now.

I've always thought that friends are the family you choose for yourself, the flowers in your life garden...the rich chocolate accompanying a crisp, cold flute of champagne. I know it is true. I can honestly say that without my family and my friends I wouldn't be able to handle life right now. I have had the worst week and a half in the history of my life and my friends and family are holding me up, helping me keep it together and steering me toward happiness.

It sounds so clinical to call my friends and family a "support system". That description always gives me images of Star Trek like flashing circuit boards and plastic shrouded wires leading off to something unseen. I think they are more like a tangible evidence of psychic nourishment...of sunshine and blue skies for my soul.

I will make it through this rough time in my life. I will make it through because I am strong, because my partner is a strong man, and because I have strong, caring, loving people in my world. I wish I could write a love letter to each of you that adequately explains just what you mean to me, but I don't have the words to do justice to how important you are. I will simply say, I love you and thank you, for all that you do, and for all that you don't do when it's time to do nothing but be there.

"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
~Henri Nouwen~


Anonymous said...

It doesn't take blood to make a family KiKi.

Kaya said...

You are so right. Just like everyone in the extended Reinhardt-Miller chosen family is family to each other, just because we're family to you. Hugs!!

Juliabohemian said...

gosh, I wish I had a clearer idea of what is going on with you. if you need to talk you can always e-mail.

Jessee said...

Even in your hour of need, you always have shown me how strong you can be. Thank you for this posting. It has definately made me stop, think about everyone in my life I consider family. Lately I have felt that my garden was bare, but actually it is blooming with some beautiful flowers.

Thanks for your inspiration.

Love Jessee

Danny said...

What a beautiful attitude. This posting only solidifies the incredible, strong, kind,loving and all out wonderful person that you are. With all my heart and soul, I LOVE YOU! I know that I can not take your pain away, God has given that to you and he knows that you can bear it. ALWAYS know that if you need help with the weight, I can help you carry the burden. You are and will always be my single best friend and I know I am blessed for that. I would give you my last heart beat to make your world a better place. I may be states away from you, but you will always be in my heart. I know God will bless you and this is really a begining and not an end. I love you!

Kaya said...

Awww, Jessica Renee Olivia de Graciada de Chihuahua! You are so sweet. And Danny, my love, what can I say to someone who knows me sometimes more than I know myself?

I love you all...all my Family Night clan, all my long term committment friends, all my CTW "We spend 40 hours a week/2080 hours a year together" friends, my HH and ex-HH friends, all my scattered across town, across the state, across the nation friends. I drink at the chalice of your heady wine sweet words and worship at your collective feet. You are my gathered up, held close to my heart, always a part of my soul family.